The phone hasn't rung for two days. At first it bothered me, but now it doesn't. As the eldest in the family since mother died, I sent an email asking family to remember Bette Doonan who has been part of our family for over 50 years, and I'm sorry that I sent it because I received no acknowledgement that anyone received it. Have you ever played hide and seek? I did as a Child in one game no one came looking for me...and I never forgot that experience.
I thought Last night as I sat gazing out the window, that I was having a heart attack...but didn't call for the ambulance and rather waited until the pain subsided. Family and other people are tired of hearing about how I feel =and I have stopped talking about it. When I faxed off a letter to the drs. no one acknowledged they received it, and their only response was to send more bills...
This week we shall gather to say farewell to our Mother, the matriarch of our family...I have written a Eulogy which I was going to distribute but I'm not. I shall quietly thank God for both mother and dad, that I had the pleasure of their company for all these years...I feel as though I have lost more than my parents over this year...I lost two people who listened, yes we disagreed, but we three knew we couldn't DO anything for each other...but we enjoyed each other's company...and I shall weep in silence...May they rest in peace...
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